SNAP monitoring Catholic leaders’ responses
ASSOCIATED PRESS| February 24, 2002
By David Crary
Some spiral into suicide or lonely despair; others become articulate crusaders for change, supported by loving families. The common bond, for victims of sexual abuse by clergymen: a piercing sense of betrayal.
“There is an element that hits your soul, and you think it was God who treated you that way,” said Cindy Desrosiers, who successfully sued a priest for molesting her as a little girl. “It takes an effort to realize, ‘No, it was a human being who was the furthest thing from God.’ ”
Desrosiers, of Augusta, Maine, is among hundreds of abuse victims who have joined SNAP – Survivors Network of those Abused by Priests. The group, founded in 1991, offers emotional support to victims and monitors church officials’ responses to abuse scandals, such as the one now rolling Boston’s Roman Catholic community, among others.
Evan as Catholic leaders offer apologies and promise to stop sheltering abusive priests, members of scarred families – such as Janet Patterson – remain cynical.
Patterson blames the 1999 suicide of her 29-year-old son, Eric, on abuse by their parish priest, when he was 12. Her advice to other stricken families is stern.
“Don’t assume the church has your best interest at heart,” she said. “They’re more concerned with containing a scandal than helping a child.”
Patterson, of Conway Springs, Kan., remains bitter that Catholic officials in her diocese knew of abuse allegations against the local priest, yet alerted no parishioners. A year ago, the priest was sentenced to prison for abuses committed in a different Kansas town.
“Here were all these young men wondering what’s wrong with them, that they’ve been singled out by this priest,” Patterson said. “If it hadn’t been kept quiet by the diocese, they would have known they weren’t alone.”
Leslie Lothstein, director of psychology at the Institute of Living mental health center in Hartford, has worked with many victims of clergy abuse.
“Parishioners know that a priest has these magical functions to bring Christ’s presence to them,” he said. “When you’re abused by someone like that, it’s not just abuse of the body, it’s abuse of the soul. Victims live a life of tremendous shame, thinking that they’ve had sex with God.”
The national director of SNAP, David Clohessy of St. Louis, says his group includes many people who struggled with destructive habits after being abused.
“Drugs, alcohol, sex, numbing kinds of things – most survivors have at least some span of their lives where they’re addicted to something,” he said.
Clohessy, 45, said he was abused by a priest as a boy, and repressed the bad memories until he was in his 30’s. He admires victims who have retained their faith, but has been unable to do so himself.
“I stopped going to Mass when I went away to college,” he said. “But my alienation from the church is more a function of what I’ve learned over the past 10 years about the hierarchy’s behavior.”
Janet Patterson and her husband, Horace, also have stopped going to church, as have two of their three surviving children. The third has become a Methodist.
It’s too painful to go and realize the leaders betrayed our family and other families,” Mrs. Patterson said. “My faith in God isn’t shaken, but my faith in the church has definitely been shaken.”
Desrosiers, 37, says she sometimes drops into a Catholic church in Augusta during quiet midweek hours. “I’m not very popular with some of the Catholics.” But she has no interest in raising her son and daughter in the faith: “My kids have seen what I’ve been through.”
In 1998, Desrosiers reached a $527,000 settlement in a lawsuit filed against the Rev. Robert Kelley, who she said abused her as a 5-year-old in southbridge, Mass., in the late 1960’s.
The legal confrontation with Kelley was therapeutic , Desrosiers said.
“In the memories and nightmares, I was a little kid, and he had total control over me,” she said. “Seeing him when I was an adult, it was healing. I was getting the control, and he was losing it.”
Desrosiers now coordinates SNAP’s operations in Maine, and has lobbied the legislature to toughen sex-crime laws.
“The more I speak out, the better I feel,” she said. “Whether it makes a difference or not, I don’t know, but I know saying nothing won’t fix anything.”
Ellin Bloch, a Los Angeles based psychologist, has worked with several victims of clergy abuse. She understands why many repress memories, but believes the best course is to talk about it.
“Denial allows them to cope, and at the same time, it has an effect on their maturity and confidence,” she said. There’s a feeling of shame, of being an outsider.”
Those who manage to thrive, despite childhood abuse, often benefit from support of family, Bloch said.
Family support was lacking after Phil Saviano, now SNAP’s coordinator in Massachusetts decided to speak out about abuse he suffered as a boy in his parish in East Douglas. “My father raked me over the coals for bringing a scandal to my home town, said I was selfish,” he said.
Now 49, and a copywriter in Boston, Saviano was seriously ill with AIDS in 1992 when he learned that the priest who abused him in the 1960’s was facing abuse charges in New Mexico that eventually led to a 275-year prison sentence.
“I almost fell off my chair,” Saviano said. “I realized nobody had ever stopped this guy, and I had to get my story out.”
As an AIDS-stricken homosexual, Saviano worried he would be smeared if he spoke out, but felt vindicated when other people came forward with allegations of abuse in the Worcester diocese.
In 1996, after charging the Rev. David Holley with sexual misconduct, Saviano reached a $12,500 settlement with the diocese. Saviano rejected a condition that he not discuss the case publicly.
“I got the documents about Holley’s problems, his treatment, all the times they were willing to give him another chance,” Saviano said. “I knew to bottle this all up again wouldn’t be good.”
Bottling up anguish was at the root of Eric Patterson’s depression and suicide, his mother believes. “He was a normal boy. He took his faith seriously.
“His senior year in high school, he said he didn’t want to be confirmed, didn’t want to go to church anymore. I had no idea why he was struggling.”
Eric fatally shot himself in October 1999, only a few months after he first told one of his sisters he was molested as a youth by the Rev. Robert Larson. A year ago, Larson was sentenced to 3 to 10 years in prison for abuses committed in 1984-86 while a priest in Newton, Kan.; he apologized to those victims, but has not publicly acknowledged abusing Eric.
With the Boston scandal bubbling, the president of the United States Conference of Catholic Bishops – Bishop Wilton Gregory – apologized Wednesday to victims of clergy abuse and their families, expressing sorrow “for this failure in our pastoral responsibilities.”
He pledged to try to stop abuse, and called on all Catholics “to resolve to work together to assure the safety of our children.”